the real me?
i have to rewrite a personal statement for a funding application. it was hard enough to write the first one. actually it wasn't that hard to write it, it was hard to get into the mood to write it. first you have to let go of the absurdity, randomness, and superficiality. then the humor in general. this takes an incredibly long time and much web surfing(and blog posting!). once that's done its time to temper the sarcasm. a wee little bit is alright, you still want to appear human, but not be declared "sarcastic." then comest the past. diggin deep down into the mines of my memory for something wistful, a little bittersweet and sad. its doens't have to be an event, just a feeling will do. once there the process becomes easy - the reasons for future events and excuses for past transgressions flow out, tied to the moment or feeling. and then you word check, edit what you can. you read the words that were your soul and you laugh a little. this brings back the sarcasm, the humor, the vapidness, the superficiality, and the carefree exterior that is you.or is the real you the one hidden behind the layers, the protective coating of laughter and years of experience? are they both you? can you exist in two seeminly conflicting ways? even in this post "I" became "you", but where does that leave me?
2 Comments:
vapidness is the way to go. remember the simpsons episode where homer became smart with removal of crayon from brain. keep that crayon in your brain as long as possible. and eat cake.
how was prom? you shoulda come to dc instead!
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